October 26, 2018: The emotions that have surfaced in me since my mother’s death have been surprising because of the intensity of them.. I retreated within myself to a level that I hadn’t done since I was a child. I didn’t want people around “offering comfort” — I didn’t want to talk to anyone.
The depth of the emotions that have surfaced has been surprising. Even when you know where something comes from, even when you understand it completely, you might be surprised at how you react. I certainly was and still am. I keep peeling through the layers or finding another branch that takes me even deeper.